Demi Lovato is reflecting on the struggles she faced in the aftermath of her 2018 drug overdose. The “Heart Attack” singer reflected on how she used to be “California sober” (someone who uses cannabis but avoids other drugs) years after the near-fatal incident. Lovato admitted in her 2021 docuseries Demi Lovato: Dancing With the Devil that she was “smoking weed and drinking in moderation” as a part of her recovery journey. In a new interview this week, the 31-year-old said she “had to learn it on my own.” She would smoke “so much weed” and take edibles, “sometimes 300mg at a time,” replacing her addiction with “something I thought was safer.”
The former Disney star was also struggling with her body image, specifically with weight gain at the time. Demi said she would hide in her room because she didn’t want anyone to see her. “I ultimately was in this walking coma, where I wasn’t feeling any pain but I also wasn’t feeling any joy.” The pop star-turned-alt-rocker cut all substances from her life in late 2021, going into treatment and sharing on social media that “sober sober is the only way.” Looking back, Lovato acknowledged how being “California sober” was too easy for her to fall back into her addiction struggles. “Smoking and drinking led me back to other substances,” she said. “Abstinence has been the key for me.”
As we previously reported, she has retained some permanent damage from her overdose. “It actually caused a disability,” she in June. “I have vision impairment and hearing impairment.” Due to this, Lovato revealed the reason she doesn’t drive is because she has blind spots in her vision. However, those effects help serve as a motivation for her to stay sober. “It’s a daily constant reminder,” Lovato continued. “It’s a constant reminder to stay on the right path because I never want that to happen again.”
Lovato’s album Revamped released on Friday, Sept. 15, a rock re-recording of her songs from previous albums.